22/03/2012

I just want to perish

 
Maybe wake back to life when my one reason to live has changed its mind and want to stay with me.
 
Everything is so fucked. Why can't have just one small period of my life, maybe longer than one week at the time, where things are not fucked? I don't want to deal with this! In just one month I almost lost everything, gave up on myself and now everything gives up on me too. I knew it. Things can never be all good. Not in my life.



03/03/2012

A darkness comes


I got an oh so purdy letter the other day, from my man <3


It's even got a moon on the cover. My man knows I'm a sucker for details *love*

 ”To NaRa
On Saturday 3rd of March
Invited for a special edition night!


1. YOU MUST DRESS BLACK AND SEXY!
2. YOU MUST BE OBEDIENT!
3. YOU MUST LIKE THAT I TAKE YOU HARD!!!

ENTRANCE ORDERS:

NB: If you do not follow this rules it may lead to banishment!

YOU ARE NOT ALLOWED TO SPEAK AS YOU ENTER!

1. YOU WALK THROUGH THE DOOR AND CLOSE IT
2. YOU TAKE 2 STEPS AND TURN FACING THE DOOR
3. YOU TAKE OFF YOUR COAT AND SHOES AND PUT THEM ON THE FLOOR IN FRONT OF YOU
4. YOU STAND STILL AND PUT YOUR HANDS ON YOUR BACK

A darkness is coming

-Nemo



Well, then I'm off. Wish me luck, maybe I'll tell you all about it later ;)


Cupcake madness!


I'm in a explicit good mood today! So I decided to search eBay for some cupcake stands and carriers! I'm so happy, I want to bake stuff! It's like when I'm in love, I get this urge. Urge for baking. And springtime get me that in love feeling.
I know I don't have nearly the time needed for baking anything right now with two papers due this month and all, but I can dream, and I can buy the necessary items for a cupcake madness!

I already have this:






Now I just need this stand that I've been drooling all over for ever


















Or maybe I should try making these??












Yep


How evil are you?



I'm working at Naughty Shadows today, feeling great actually! The spring is bathing the town in a beautiful yellow sunlight, and I'm so happy I'm dancing behind the desk-looking totally retarded, or cute. Either one.

Sun posted a "how evil are you"-test on her Norwegian blog, forcing me to take it, and of course I had to, so my results were:

You are creative, philosophical  and particularly concerned about people. This could mean that you are good at putting yourself in others’ shoes and you have high empathy. Furthermore, you must always remember that all people are as much human as you are. To think that some are less human, do in fact make it easier for you to kill them.

The very same answer that she got. It be no joke when I say we share the same brain.

If you want to take this Norwegian test, press HERE - and be sure to post your result as comment. If you want to read Suns hilarious blog, press HERE - and it's even more entertaining when you can actually read Norwegian.


02/03/2012

The day I *almost* saved the world



Yesterday was a big day for me. A week ago I got a call from the hospital and they set up an appointment for me for my first blood donation session. Which was yesterday.

I've had Trypanophobia my whole life
, and my phobia of needles did not get any better when I got robbed by a junkie threatening me with a dirty, bloody needle. So you can say I didn't actually look forward to give blood. But nevertheless, my mind was set on it. I was getting rid of my phobia and in the same time contribute to the world, save human lives, be a hero. I really felt like a hero, giving my own life to save others in need. And it felt good, being able to say I donate blood. It felt great!

But i realised I couldn't do this alone.. So I sent Sun a message:

"Do you finish work at 4 pm? What are your plans after that? *may possibly resemble a leading questing that later will be followed by "do you want to..." and in this case will be the beginning of the question " do you want to come hold my hand while I'm being brave when doctors steal my blood?" if this would've been such a leading question as I imply*"

And of course she'd love to! So after school I took the train to Lillestrøm medical centre. I got there. I filled out the forms. I sat down with the nice nurse lady. I got sent home. Apparently my oh so gorgeous lip piercing prevent me from being able to donate blood. It goes through the mucous membrane which can affect my blood. I think it's great that they're so precocious, and I love that I escaped the needle, but still a bit sad I can't to it when I really wanted to.




I don't like to look at it as a rejection, I like to think more of it just me being to cool for them, with my oh so cool and awesome piercing. He-llo go-rgeous!